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Wednesday, February 27, 2008,4:43 PM
The O.R. & The Internal Medicine
Today i had two totally different situations

The First

Is that for the first time I attended my General Internal Medicine round, and it was Shocking, the patient was a woman of something like 22-24 years, a simple peasant who her bad luck and lack of money for paid medical care drove her into our glorious hospital. And the Clinical Round started, we were about 12 students, a professor and a small doctor.

The Professor started to explain to us some facts on the patient and how are mean examiners are going to ask us, how we are supposed to dodge their question and how is the best way to answer them.
Then he asked us to start our examination.

One of us stepped forward to start the examination, and the Professor asked us all to approach in order to see the case and our friend's examination, our friends started the examination and the professor asked another to examine the pulse in the other hand of the patient, another to examine her left foot and another to examine her right foot. so by total there were about at least FOUR hands on the Female
patient, all applying pressure, feeling and examining.

This was not the end, he asked her to revel her abdomen to start the abdominal examination, and the show continued, She was trying to cover herself every while as a weak sign of protest, but we kept reveling her, she was hopeless and powerless.

I Imagined myself in the patient shoes and asked my self, how would I feel? Humiliated? or Degraded? or would I consider my self as a human being at all? When they were teaching us, they told us that we are going to be doctors. Doctors who will know secrets of the houses, who will see things that no others will see, and that we shall up to this hard task and keep the patients secrets. They taught us that we will deal with humans in their weakest states the state of sickness, a state which turn the most might into a weak, defeated person, and that we have to respect that, we have to keep in mind that we are treating humans, we have lives in our hands, and that God trusted us on the lives of his creatures and and and to the end of all that long speech.
How come when we see them working, they don't care about all that and they as us to care!!??

How come we shall respect their teachings when they themselves are the first ones to break it!!??
How Am I supposed to learn while I feel i am degrading another human being?

At the end I thanked God that i have the power to stand on my legs, and not be in her shoes, and i asked him to preserve anyone I know from the same fate.





The Second

Is that for the First time in my life I also enter an Operating Room, i was passing by a friend of mine by chance, and there was a case scheduled for an operation and he invited me to scrub in to watch and observe, and I did.

The Feeling was intoxicating, I - the one watching - felt a huge surge of power, so i can't imagine the power he was feeling behind the blade, as he opens retract the muscle and flesh, control the small bleeders, and finishes the operation.

I Could only say WOW, and for the coincidence there was also a senior doctor supervising on the operation, also he is a surgeon who is supposed to be cold blooded, stone hearted and impatient, he was very caring, very careful on the patient, very friendly with the stuff in he OR also me who he didn't know even my name. He kept asking my friend to take care, he kept asking him why we do this, and why we do that. he kept explaining every thing to him before he actually do anything although my friend has performed this operation before but he was reminding him, ensuring him and making sure he is doing his best, and how after my friend finished the operation he checked and made the post operative care himself.

I am not saying that both are standards, they are both just examples, but to my luck i meet both in the same day, and saw both situations in the same day, when i started this article i was planing to write about the feelings I had in the OR and how I thought that I need to this again, but i found myself writing what you read. I don't know why but it just happened.

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Saturday, February 23, 2008,5:39 PM
The Juice Is Worth The Squeeze
It's funny, I have this whole speech prepared...
...and I've been practicing for weeks...
...but you know what?
I'm just gonna go with it.
Moral fiber.
So, what is moral fiber? I mean....
It's funny, I used to think it was always telling the truth...
...doing good deeds.
You know, basically being a ****ing Boy Scout.
But lately, I've been seeing it differently.
Now I think that moral fiber's about...
...finding that one thing you really care about.
That one special thing that means more...
...to you than anything else in the world.
And when you find her...
...you fight for her. You risk it all.
...your future, your life...
You put her in front of everything...
...all of it.
And maybe the stuff you do to help her isn't so clean.
You know what? It doesn't matter.
Because in your heart you know...
...that the juice is worth the squeeze.
That's what moral fiber's all about.


A Quote Form The Movie The Girl Next Door

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Wednesday, February 20, 2008,10:49 AM
The Start
Hi All

This is the first time I try to write something - unless you can count some foolish tries when i was younger -.

I don't know what made me start writing, some of my friends have been asking to do it for a Long time but i never felt like it, but some moment comes and you feel like this is, you are writing, you writing not because you want to write, but because you don't want to sit alone, you don't want to sit to your thoughts ravishing your head, tearing your internals apart, at that moment you may grab your pen (Keyboard Nowadays) and start typing.

A lot has been going on with me these past days, some of them are happy and others are not. but life goes on, and it doesn't stop for you, it keeps running, doesn't wait for you, doesn't wait till you recover from your sadness or depression, As if it is telling you "You Fool, what do you think of yourself? Do you think you are someone special? Do you think just cause you are a little depressed and thinks that your life is bad that the whole Universe will stop and wait for you till you get better? Get Up and move on no one is going to wait for you, Catch Up."


So why don't we listen and catch up?, because we are humans, and we are all some how to a degree self-centered we all -To a level Of course- think that that whole universe is created around us and to serve us, and because we are humans we have feelings, feelings that can block our logic and make us do things we may not approve for other people, like falling apart and lagging behind.

See that at any Funeral we call go to the dead's relative and we ask him to hold himself together and be a man, etc etc etc to the end of all that nonsense, see anyone of those who are saying all that when someone dear to him dies, you won't find him as he was asking the other to be, you will find him crying, depressed and maybe destroyed. that is not wrong, it is the core of the right because that is what makes us humans, that is what makes us different from Rocks and Mountains.

As you may have noticed, i am not someone, i am someone different, I haven't reached a conclusion about myself yet, but i am trying and all I have reached is that i am different than others, different from the Bulk, that may be good and may be bad, but it is me, and i have learned to live with it.


Thanks for the time that you spent reading those meanings lines, if they helped you to create and Idea about me please don't hesitate to share with me, all ideas are welcomed may be you will help me to define myself one day.
 
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