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Sunday, October 21, 2012,2:47 PM
Personal Experinces
Today, I was out to hang out with a friend of mine, and I met an American Guy who has been in Egypt during the revolution, he was there in the square and the major events after it.

I rarely talk about what it was like to be there, as a doctor or as a citizen, it is something just too personal for me to share, when people ask me I just reply their questions, they can’t understand, how it was like to be there, how ready each one there was ready to give up everything, for the idea or even the dream of a better country, for the normal people it is just an amazing thing, A really good amazing point in History where people take actions.
It was not that, it was THE moment when I felt really Egyptian, THE moment where you start building your country in your head as the best place in the world despite all the limitations and the problems it has right now, it was THE moment when all those patriotic songs just made sense, it was THE moment where you can trust anyone else beside you because he is just Egyptian and THE moment you care for your opponents and just wish they understand you more and you are more keen that they come to your side and join your dream than to actually beat them and be victories, it was THAT moment and much much more, it is still just too personal to share honestly.

Today I was blabbing with this guy, I honestly don’t remember his name, but it was such easy to talk with him, I realized how much I missed talking about it, it is much easier to talk to people when you know your personal experiences will fall into context with them, maybe that is why all the support groups just work.

I don’t know if I was bragging, disclosing or just the need to relive those moments with a fellow who has been through the same, But I really felt like talking and I really enjoyed it.
 
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Wednesday, October 17, 2012,10:33 AM
Reflections
It has been somehow a strange week.
Things are getting weird in some aspects, overloaded in others and promising in others.

It is really strange how our prospective of life around us, and how we interpret the same events, in totally different ways maybe even opposites.

When you are happy you see the world through those bright, colorful glasses, everyone around you is smiling, and in just a few moments when your mood changes, those glasses dims, and the colors vanish, everyone around you is gloomy, you seem to shutdown and the whole world follows you.

Nothing around us is definitive, there are just so few certainties in our daily lives.

I have some work to do today, But as usual I am not doing any, it is accumulating and accumulating, I should be really doing it.

Our own Fears are our greatest barriers, they just hold us back, they make us miss on the experience we chicken out on, either it is the fear of getting hurt, the fear of disclosing and opening up or the fear of being misunderstood and above all the fear of not knowing what we really know, the moment we learn how to conquer those fears, or at least ignore them, that we really start experiencing life, yes of course we most probably we will get hurt, we will be misunderstood, and we might never know what we really want, but It most of the times will be worth it, the experience, the joy and Ride of it will outweighs the consequence if not at least compensate it.
 
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Wednesday, October 10, 2012,12:34 PM
Random Thoughts
So it has been ages since I was here.
Now I am not an intern anymore
I am doing my masters in Lebanon, at the American University of Beirut (AUB).

Here it is a whole other thing, I am attending classes, still facing trouble with studying but at least I am attending.

The University is a lot different than my home university, lots of green spaces, the teaching, the curriculum.
And the the students are a whole other thing, some are just plain silly, and others are more interesting, it is bad when you are good at reading people, it usually takes the joy out meeting those bad people till you know they are bad.

Now I am much older than the last time I was here, your age is not just measured in years and days, it is mainly measured in your life experience, I was there during the Revolution, I left my beloved organization, and got through that agonizing feeling of having nothing to do for long periods of time, I worked with the United Nation (UN).

Did this all change me, I really don't know I would say yes, although I don't feel it.

Why I am even Writing now I don't know, but this is just a start, I guess I will be here more often.

Wish me good luck.
 
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